God says I told you so....

Well, as many of you know the last several months at work has been less than great and that is being kind.  But oddly in the last 2 weeks the tides have changed.  I had some time off for my birthday and then I had to do some training at our main facility, 2 different days over the past 2 weeks and truthfully it couldn't have come at a better time.  I was not really looking forward to taking on more responsibility, however I was definitely up for learning new things to change things up a bit.  My caseload at work shifted as well.  Several particularly difficult patients left and being able to go back to my old stomping grounds and be reminded that I am good at what I do was really a gift from God.  So while I still struggle with wanting other things in my life, right now God has once again come in and calmed my restless heart.  It was just the refocus and rejuvenation I needed.  

I'm continually surprised at God's ability to step in just when things seem their worst.  God has done this many times in my life so it speaks to my level of stubbornness that I am still surprised when He answers prayers in ways that are different than what I have requested but somehow better than what I could have wanted.  I believe with all my heart that God knows what we need even when we don't or more specifically we don't want what we need we want what we WANT.  Its in those moments that its hard to see God's blessing, but we have to realize we have been blessed nonetheless.  Would I have preferred God allow Jake and I to win the lottery so I could quit my job and live a life of leisure, heck ya!  God knows however that there is a better plan out there and it once again comes down waiting on His timing not mine.  

So, now I'm grateful that God has brought about renewal in me to continue His work with my patients and will wait patiently for what He has planned next.

He's just not that into you...

Well, Jake and I went to see the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" for part of our Valentine's date night.  It was a cute movie and filled with a lot of harsh truths.  Honestly, I wish this movie had come out a whole lot sooner.  I felt so embarrassed for one of the main characters mostly because I remember the days that I used to do a lot of things she did to try to understand the guys I was interested in. The staring at the phone the reading into every comment made or even the comments that weren't made.  It was insane!!!    I left the theater feeling so grateful to have found Jake when I did.  He tries so hard everyday to be the best husband he can be and he does a great job.  He manages my mood swings easily and always knows how to make me laugh.  There are days when I just can't thank God enough for sending him to me.  So after watching this hilarious movie I was able to breathe a sigh of relief not only for finding Jake but in him finding a husband that will never stray or dare I say do anything with intention to hurt me.  I'll admit that fully trusting has always been a problem for me, but the longer we are married the more I trust, not just him, but in us and what we have found.  So, thanks for listening to this mushy post about how thankful I am for my sweet husband and our almost 1 year of marriage.  God has truly blessed us.  

Home Sweet Home

We have made it home from not so sunny California.  It was a great trip even though it rained the entire, yes I mean entire time we were there.  Here is Jake waiting in line for "Its a Small World", I'm not sure he'd want me broadcasting that he willingly went on that particular ride...but I guess its too late for that now isn't it?

Even though it was a wet trip it was still a great way to spend my birthday.  We met up with Steven and Susan and their little girl...here she is...isn't she the cutest?
It was great to catch up with them and a nice way to take a break from the weather.  And we celebrated my 35Th birthday...Ugh...35, is it weird I still feel 18?  
I got my very own Happy Birthday button, truthfully the only reason I wanted to go to the park on my birthday.  All in all it was wonderful to be away and spend time together.  One small disturbing thing happened while we were gone though.  I had given myself permission to drink Coke while I was at Disneyland.  I was so excited, I had a full on Coca-Cola binge planned, but oddly enough when I did drink it, I only had one, no refills no 32oz ( a new addition at DL by the way), just the normal size coke.  What is wrong with me.  Even on my birthday, only one refill, I never thought the day would come when I would willingly drink coke in moderation.  I guess old age does strange things to people.  I'm not sure I even know who I am anymore...ok, that is a bit of an exaggeration, but something new and different none the less.  So, now I'm back to no Coke and oddly I'm ok with it, not loving it but ok.  Who am I?????

4 Days and counting!

Ok, so in four days Jake and I will be on a plane headed for Anaheim, Ca and the happiest place on earth-Disneyland!  Words can not express how excited I am.  Sure I'm excited about the park, we haven't been since last June and I could you a few good spins on Big thunder mountain and a nice fall from the Tower of terror, but mostly I'm just excited to be getting the heck out of dodge.  As I've shared, work has been so stressful for me, Jake and his Dad have been working a big job that has required early mornings and late nights.  It will definitely be so nice to not have pressures or responsibilities for the weekend.  I'm also super excited because I'll actually be at the park on my birthday, its never happened before and it will just add to the fun and maybe lighten the sting of my 35Th...UGH!  We are also meeting up with some friends while there so it will be a time for us to catch up with them.  So, even though right now I'm checking my phone constantly because I'm on call, in a few hours it will be Monday and that responsibility will be given to someone else and all I will have to do is get through 3 days of appointments and groups and then I will be a free woman for 4 whole days!  

Needless to say these next few days will go by slowly, but I know I can persevere and make it...wow that sounded really dramatic.  Apparently I have a hidden flair for drama...who knew?

I'll be sure to post photos when we get back, I'm sure we will take plenty.

Oh....and....

 GO CARDINALS!!!!!!!